OMG! The start of this year has been so hard! Cold, cold winter. Long working hours. Multiple days, not to say weeks, of illness and a post virus limbo that seemed to be never ending. The last couple of months felt like a mad cocktail of exhaustion and being slightly knocked sideways by life’s many unmet expectations.

If you’ve felt overloaded, flat, unmotivated or like you don’t care about anything anymore, you’re not alone. I’ve been right there with you. But: 

THINGS WILL GET BETTER! Let us just cling to that hope!

Doing the right thing

These last few months I’ve been reflecting upon my priorities, my do’s and don’ts and what I really want out of life. And I’ve come to realise that some things have to go. I simply cannot continue repeating the same draining things over and over again and expect life to be better. 

Since my energy still is more or less missing, I decided to keep listening to my body, be kind to myself and avoid pushing through as I normally would have done. 

It feels like those long hours at work are seriously killing me, so I’ve taken some actions towards changing my day job with my doctor’s approval. 

Fingers crossed that the Fire Horse energy will kick in and take me galloping into a much brighter future! Because I do want an active life besides working! 

What I really, really want

Working those long hours and evening shifts is both time consuming and hindering social life. To be honest, I believe some of my old friends gave up on me because I’m never available, knocked over by a virus or too exhausted to see them. 

What I really, really want is a better work – life balance!

Somehow I managed to squeeze in some much needed drawing sessions at the National Museum with some art colleagues, a couple of hot coffees, a yummy dinner and a few phone calls with friends living overseas. Hanging out and laughing together with friends makes me happy!

A while ago I agreed to make a brand new painting for a group exhibition and started the first layers. But then I crashed. Again. Fever and headaches. Another virus. Right now I feel so sorry for myself, but hopefully things will turn for the better soon!

But Hey! I’m heading out into the woods to enjoy a day off! 

See yah next month!